okay. so i haven't posted for three months. that probably gives you some idea about how my life goes these days.

it is hard and it is good. so good. i don't think i've ever had a thanksgiving more thankful than this. life is so sweet right now that i want to cry thinking about it. and life is so hard right now that i want to cry thinking about it. but you know what... sweet wins. what tears appear are mostly ones of gratitude and fullness. i am satisfied with the lot i've been given in life. not satisfied as in... "it is satisfactory"... satisfied as in... "i've just eaten a huge meal and i'm satsified."

i am full with the richness of life.

but right now... my 2 older ones are at grandmas and my youngest is asleep and i am chronically exhausted... so this post will have to wait. hopefully not three more months. :)