okay. i just got finished looking through a few photo albums of emerson as a one or two year old.

i feel anguished. it's going too fast. help.

it was good though. looking at those pictures made me want to slow down. way down. and who the hell cares if my dishes are done? my babies are growing up.

will someone remind me of this when i get stressed out? i feel terrified that i'll get to the end and have missed it all.

oh God help me be here now with these sweet little ones. heal me so that i can see them. really see them now... and not in pictures two years from now. please help me.