okay... well... it's been what?... 10 days since my last post... ahhh... those were the days. i was a naive little pollyanna back then. 10 days ago. since then... all hell has broken loose at the kay homestead.
the house is not cleaner. the kids are not happier. chris and i are still getting along great... but maybe because we have no energy to do anything but flop ourselves onto the couch once everyone else finally stops attacking us for trying to make them go to sleep. julian is totally jealous and regressing. phoenix is fussy and inconsistent. emerson is super hyper and whiny. and my nerves are shot with all three of them.
i think i was a good mom once. somewhere in the recesses of my mind... i seem to remember thinking i was doing an okay job. ha! well those days are gone. i am doing this all wrong as evidenced by the insanity displayed throughout my home and family
maybe tomorrow... maybe.
goal: worry less about house and more about connecting with each kid. LET HOUSE GO!!!!
goal: state corrections positively and with a gracious tone.
goal: outweight negative corrections with positive affirmations.
goal: discipline with love and compassion as well as consistany.
goal: be quick to listen, slow to speak, slow to anger.
goal: remember that emerson is only four and treat him accordingly
goal: hold julian more, look into his eyes when i talk to him, discipline him consistantly.
goal: try not to put the tv on so much for kids.
goal: enjoy my children
goal: have fun
oh yes... i know... you will say to give myself a break. give myself lots of grace. easier said than done... i am finding it totally and completely unacceptable to come up as short as i am this week. it is not acceptable. but maybe the only way out of the horror of it is to accept it. i don't know.
i'm just spent.
i love these little guys so much and i constantly feel like i'm falling on my face when it comes to showing it.
we're all emotional and insecure. all of us. pray for us.
chelsea kay's days
a stay at home mom trying to figure things out
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- Name: chelsea
- Location: Ohio, United States
i'm a stay at home mom. i'm crazy about my little boys. in a past life i was an acting major. i love to read more than almost anything. if i could get a second degree it would be in art history. i love jesus somethin' awful. and i go to an amazing church who loves me well.
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Wow is this what I have to look forward to??? Where is the baby return department?!?! JK
I like the goals, maybe you should type them out and pray about them each day when you have devotions, even it is the only thing you do for devotions.
Shad is only 3 months, so I by no means am an expert. However, I am already getting the idea that God has given him to us for Shaping and Molding....mostly of us.
You have got 8 great ones that change how you treat them but only 2 that show you how to be more like them.
I seriously doubt you are doing this all wrong. You have 3 boys ok 4 if you count Chris, insanity is bound to be on display, A LOT!!!!
I was up at VCDC the other day and ran into your mom (btw, I dont know her well but she has always been really warm and sweet whenever we have talked).I told her that I saw you at Smackies with the baby. She is so proud of you and the job you are doing. I am not sure how many of you kids she had, I think 3 maybe, see if she ever felt like you do. I bet the answer is yes.
Heck I feel like you do and Shad cant even walk yet. If we dont ever feel like you do we don't need Gods help and guidance. I think what you are feeling great as long as you see that it is Gods gentle guiding and not a beat yourself up fest.
I have a feeling you will have a ton of comments on here from people who actually know you, that will let you know what kind of job you are really doing.
Dave Webster
chelsea,
you rock in so many ways. your life right now? definitely crazy. how you are doing it? i have no clue. all i know is that we all have really good days and really bad days when it comes to parenting (heck, when it comes to anything). we screw up or we slack off and then we get back on track. when there is the craziness like there is in your life right now? it's bound to happen OFTEN. the fact that you are even upset/bothered by too much tv and all that means you have not lost it completetly. you still have a goal that you are working towards. so don't lose hope, you are doing a great job even on your hardest days. i love you so much!
Chelsea,
We are so with you.
I completely understand the feelings of inadequacy, lack of time, lack of energy, lack of patience...
Jeez.
We'll be praying for you, and all of us with these little kids will get through it together. Our parents made it -- so can we.
Much love.
chels.
i understand what you're saying about the tv issue. at the beginning of parenthood i was obsessed with making sure my kids did not take in too much television. but take it from someone who was raised on tv (ME-i'd easily watch 10 hours a day on weekends and 4 hours a day on school days), tv won't ruin your kid. it really won't. especially if you are conscious of excessive amounts as a parent. just take this time and call it the tv era of your home because it probably makes life a little easier than feeling guilty about the amount of tv the boys are watching.
also know that any mom of more than one MUST look at you with awe! i cannot imagine parenting two children as close together as phoenix and julian are, let alone a 4 year old in the mix! when you get to the other side of all of this (and i'm not sure when that will be), you will definitely deserve some sort of medal!
all of this to say, there's no shame in feeling crazy and overwhelmed! just keep doing what you're doing--don't pressure yourself with guidlines. when i am feeling crazy with my girls, i think about how i can respond like jesus to them. it works, and it doesn't leave me with a to do list.
chels.
i understand what you're saying about the tv issue. at the beginning of parenthood i was obsessed with making sure my kids did not take in too much television. but take it from someone who was raised on tv (ME-i'd easily watch 10 hours a day on weekends and 4 hours a day on school days), tv won't ruin your kid. it really won't. especially if you are conscious of excessive amounts as a parent. just take this time and call it the tv era of your home because it probably makes life a little easier than feeling guilty about the amount of tv the boys are watching.
also know that any mom of more than one MUST look at you with awe! i cannot imagine parenting two children as close together as phoenix and julian are, let alone a 4 year old in the mix! when you get to the other side of all of this (and i'm not sure when that will be), you will definitely deserve some sort of medal!
all of this to say, there's no shame in feeling crazy and overwhelmed! just keep doing what you're doing--don't pressure yourself with guidlines. when i am feeling crazy with my girls, i think about how i can respond like jesus to them. it works, and it doesn't leave me with a to do list.
chels.
i understand what you're saying about the tv issue. at the beginning of parenthood i was obsessed with making sure my kids did not take in too much television. but take it from someone who was raised on tv (ME-i'd easily watch 10 hours a day on weekends and 4 hours a day on school days), tv won't ruin your kid. it really won't. especially if you are conscious of excessive amounts as a parent. just take this time and call it the tv era of your home because it probably makes life a little easier than feeling guilty about the amount of tv the boys are watching.
also know that any mom of more than one MUST look at you with awe! i cannot imagine parenting two children as close together as phoenix and julian are, let alone a 4 year old in the mix! when you get to the other side of all of this (and i'm not sure when that will be), you will definitely deserve some sort of medal!
all of this to say, there's no shame in feeling crazy and overwhelmed! just keep doing what you're doing--don't pressure yourself with guidlines. when i am feeling crazy with my girls, i think about how i can respond like jesus to them. it works, and it doesn't leave me with a to do list.
We really need to hang out, maybe with out the boys some day. I have no idea how that would happen, but it's a nice thought. Maybe we could schedule something after Phoenix and Evan graduate from highschool. I felt like I was reading my own thoughts. Some days are better than others, but this sure is hard work...
Hope you rest well tonight and that tomorrow is a good day.
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