i am going under. i am going under.

i am exhausted beyond belief.

chris got his wisdom teeth out yesterday and it was much worse than they expected and my mother in law came to help but couldn't come today and i ate something that is hurting the babies tummy but have too many people to take care of to have time to pump and tonight at the end of the day after slaving just to get everyone through... julian cried for daddy and emerson cried for grandma and the baby just cried. and so did i.

i feel like a failure but i know i did my best. my best just seems so inadequate these days.

must sleep while i can. who knows who will be up when...................................