well i had my first weekly check with my midwife today. i am one centimeter which means nothing really. you could walk around 3 or 4 centimeters for a couple weeks before you shift into labor. still... what it does mean is that my body works. that it knows that we are approaching the general vicinity of birth and that whether it be tonight or 3 weeks away... it is beginning to head in that direction. it makes everything all the more real.

i am definitely feeling ready to have this baby physically. i am ready to not be pregnant anymore. i have definitely hit waddling mode and my lower back is starting to ache all the time. my hips feel out of joint and every step wears me out. still... i am so in touch with my nesting instinct that i find it hard to rest even when i do have the time to spare. and poor little julian is just plain out of room.

last weekend i had a wonderful shower that jamie lee organized for me. i invited just close friends and relatives and it was elegant and extravagant. i am so thankful for people who love me. i got everything i needed... and then some. so now i have a lot of stuff to unpack, put away, put together, exchange... etc. mostly it's just fun to go through all the baby stuff and begin to think about a real little guy joining us so soon.

i can't wait.