i've been so sick the last few days. well... let me take that back. i've been sick for the late afternoon and evening for the last three days. i was starting to really feel better and then i just took a nose dive on thursday afternoon. sigh..... oh well. i just wish i could go away for a few weeks and rest and eat and read and lay down.

i mean, don't get me wrong... this has been the easiest pregnancy i've had so far. with emerson i threw up every single day... sometimes 4 or 5 times. my last pregnancy i felt totally queasy all day, every day. this time... it's somewhat managable. most days are okay with little rough patches of nausea and mild queasiness off and on. mostly i'm just tired, hungry and sluggish all the time. that... i can deal with. but i do sometimes fantasize about just escaping to some secluded place where nobody needs me and there is no house to clean and no dinner to cook and no phone to answer and no bills to pay where i don't have to feel guilty about just laying there for the entire day. :) (who am i kidding... i'd last a half a day and then i'd miss my guys so much i'd remember that cooking and cleaning for them is a privelege.)

chris let me sleep in this morning. it was 9:45 when emerson came and woke me up with a kiss to tell me it was time to get ready for brunch with uncle paul. i was in such a deep sleep that i couldn't quite wake up though i could hear them talking. i seriously think i could have slept on till 1:00 with no trouble.

we then went to tj's where i ordered one egg, two pieces of bacon, a piece of toast and a potatoe cake and when i was finished i realized i should have ordered twice as much. ridiculous. i am so hungry all the time. if i told you what i eat in an average day you would never believe me. but i'll spare you the details.

anyhow... in spite of all these little irritations... i feel so at peace. so tender and open. i feel like emerson's face is so full of beauty every morning and i just feel gracious and deeply appreciative of chris. i just feel like life has given me so many things to be thankful for and i don't want to take it all for granted.